i am nervous.

i wrote an entire blog about being nervous and as i read it through i realized that it was just a public email that i should send straight to the source.

so...my apologies art neely, you will not be able to read my innermost thoughts on nervousness. but if you have to know, i can spill one bean on where it tingles. hehe i get nervous right in my stomach, right under my left ribcage, but more towards the center. there. right there is where it tingles when i get nervous. usually it's good, but a nervous good, you know what i'm talking about right?? and no, it's not THAT kind of nervousness, it's an innocent, 12 year old type of nervousness. 

anyways...

yesterday was the best day. i spent 4 hours in my backyard on a picnic table just working. i saw hummingbirds, did laundry, brainstormed in the sun, drank juice, and worked, productively. 

i rarely use my backyard, but i think i will use it more often now. it's nice to be outdoors. and for some reason, typing outdoors makes me more productive. i sit down with my laptop and look out at our garden and orange trees and ideas just flow. 

happy day. if you are ever by my parents' house, come by, we will enjoy life in the backyard together. it could be fun. =]